loss (of everything) and sleep

he said

well
I thought
I had enough
insurance

I’d covered the place
for more
than the cost
and I thought
for sure
that would be enough

but
it seems as though
it is never
quite as much
as you first thought

and
it seems as though
the costs
are always
more

the bank claimed
first
to get money back
for the mortgage

then
well
they change re-building rules
you know

just
to make things better

to make sure
houses in the bush
are built
much stronger
next time around

ha

ha
ha

as though
any kind of strong
could withstand
a fire
like this one was

anyway . . .

anyway . . .

I ended up
in debt again
then
I found my business
was in strife

no customers
no visitors

no tourists

for much too long

I had to leave it
behind

and the memories I hold
of that
have become
strange places

it feels as though
it all happened
to someone else

I don’t know
the way it works
but
I’ve started waking up
in the night
again

and in the middle
of the dark
the flames
and what I lost
are all this one
thing

the same thing

sometimes
I think
I may never get to sleep
again

~

5 thoughts on “loss (of everything) and sleep

  1. Pingback: loss (of everything) and sleep — Frank Prem Poetry | Meeka's Mind

    • Yes it is, Diane. This round of fires is starting to quiet down, it seems, with those that have been raging since last October finally running out of puff, but there will be more and the flow-on effects are going to be awful.

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